Archive for May, 2008

It’s Not About The Money, Honey


2008
05.22

It’s been a busy week for Dave. Well when I say busy I mean stressful, and when I say stressful I mean to say I’m getting the shaft from a few different sides right now. In a few days, I’ll be heading over to Korea to rejoin my fellow English teachers as we give Korean kids Englishee. I’ll also be rejoining a bunch of my friends, starting a new job and spending time with my girlfriend. Note the lack of plurality. I’ll be leaving my current school in Shanghai early, and cutting my apartment lease prematurely and it has been a balancing act to allow each side to adjust to accommodate me. For almost a month now I’ve been trying to find someone to replace my job, live in my house and buy my bicycle. They basically have to take over my life which, by the way, is pretty sweet. However its sweetness mainly comes from me being in it, rather than the job, house or location of it.

Anyway, this process has really not been as easy as I thought it would be. The landlord isn’t happy I didn’t pay the last month’s rent, but as I’m going to lose my deposit, I figure what’s the point. Meanwhile I’ve been looking for people to take the apartment, but the new teacher thinks it’s too big and wants a roommate and so I’ve been finding a roommate, but the person who was meant to come decided that she would just go to some random location instead of following the specific directions I emailed to her, so never made it. It’s been hard. My job wants me to stay longer, to ease the transition period but who are leaving it completely up to me to find them a new teacher. After I found a teacher the first time, they waited so long to decide on him that I practically had to kick them into making a decision. So every time I extend my date of arrival, my girlfriend gets sadder as I tell her, “wait a little longer”. I justify the delay to her and myself that I’m trying to get the deposit, plus another paycheck from the school, but I suppose that’s not the real reason.

There is some part of me that really enjoys being here in China. I love my apartment, my job is easy, I ride a bike to work and have lots of spare money to spend. I can blaze around in the afternoon or head into the busy town for a nightcap. I can eat at a fine restaurant, or go down the street and get some 5 kuai noodles from the vendor on the footpath. My apartment is really nice, but I probably mentioned that before. I haven’t had an apartment this nice, ever. It’s not Palazzo Versace or anything, but it’s bright, clean and has lots of open space. Some afternoons are just like heaven, the sunlight, the gentle breeze blowing the white curtains, the distant sound of a motor mower, the smell of my burnt pancakes and coffee, the late start to my working day. It’s almost like a holiday living here.

The lounge room where I chilled in the afternoon Something about someone mowing that grass calms me

A lovely sleep can be had here in the afternoon

So yeah, it’s about the money but it’s not only about the money. It’s also about savoring this moment in my life before it becomes a distant memory of twenty-something youth.

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Earthquake Aftermath


2008
05.21

chinese_earthquakeI’m watching Chinese TV right now as they report on the hundreds of people who lost their homes to the recent earthquake. Of course, I can’t understand what they are saying, but the reporter is walking among sad-looking people who are packed into a sports ground. There are makeshift beds and classrooms and every so often the reporter will shove the microphone in front of someone who cries. I’m almost confident they are crying about the earthquake, though there is an outside chance it is a report about a national gypsy convention. If this is the case, then there is something very sad going on in the gypsy world.

A few days ago China stopped for 3 minutes to remember those who passed in the tragedy. Taxis and cars stopped in the street, people stood everywhere in silence, workers came out of their shops and buildings to stand together. This 3 minutes of solidarity would be nice to experience more often, were it not in remembrance of something tragic.

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Etheism, God and The Meaning of Life


2008
05.20

Talking about the nature of God first makes sense because to understand God we have to first understand ourselves and our place in the universe. Now, the word God invokes many different ideas. Quite often we think of the Christian God who is like a grumpy old man who doesn’t like to be bothered and who rules with an iron fist. There is a slightly different version of this God in the New Testament compared to the Old Testament though either way he assumes the identity of a wise, old, occasionally wrathful man. I think this idea is rubbish. I also think that any variation on the God-is-a-man concept is rubbish. Not only that, the idea that he is watching over our every move is also rubbish. Finally, the idea that he is in fact a he is, um, how do I put this? Ah yes, rubbish.

Okay now that I have made every major religion my enemy I will continue and discuss what I feel is the true nature of God. To be honest it’s really hard not to use phrases like “God is infinite”, “God is everywhere” or other such clichd lines. This is what many religions currently say. I do imagine that if you sat down with a random holy book you might see lines to this effect. Why then, if God is infinite as they profess, do they limit the concept by giving him a finite identity. To see the truths in current religion, you ignore the fictionalized stories that happen in all of them and see their common thread. People have limited God in order to understand it which has anthropomorphized God into an all-knowing and controlling father figure. However our spirituality deserves more than just stories about an imaginary man in the sky.

We all long for a spiritual connection of some kind. While we can feel that spiritual connection through friendship, love, parenthood or art, we also feel a need to define our own place in the universe. We long for a spiritual connection which illuminates our role in existence. It’s not self-aggrandizement where you feel everything you do is vital to the function of the universe. Nor is it a feeling of resignation where you wait out your short life for an impending doom. Rather, your understanding of God helps you enjoy this moment you have and all that exists alongside you. My religion is about taking joy from your existence and being completely comfortable with your amazing (albeit, short) journey through this world.

God is the energy of the universe. We are all balls of energy interacting and acting of our own accord. We are on a planet which contains a million forms of life all doing their own thing trying to survive long enough to replicate and nurture their young into another life cycle. We are all driven by the life force. We do what we do to continue this life force. All the emotions, all the fears and desires are manifestations of this force, propelling us through our lives. You can look back on all of history, all those thousands and thousands of generations of people before you. Each one of them felt like you feel right now. Each one of them felt like they were the most advanced thing on the Earth. But where are they now? What did they do to help you? Will we really remember them?

Our ancestors, despite their feelings of grandeur, ultimately died. However they all died completing their mission which was to replicate, to breed new life to replace their own. We are all here for that one simple reason. And yes, we feel that we are the most advanced things to ever hit this planet as will our children feel and as will those earthlings thousands and thousands of years into the future. We are a flash in the pan. For a brief moment in time we will shine our lights brightly into existence and then we’ll be gone. All of those ancestors that went before us finally learned that one ultimate truth. Once you are able to accept your place in time, only then will you be able to fully savor every last moment of it. We remember our ancestors in the way that we remember the steps and rungs on a ladder we are climbing. They got us this far and we appreciate that. We are not really sure where we are climbing or why we want to climb so badly, however we have have the desire deep within our souls that we should just keep going up. Why we are doing this nobody can know, nor should they lose any sleep wondering about it. We will play our part in whatever purpose it is, allowing the universal plan to continue. If we exist according to our programming, we will get pleasure for fulfilling our part. No pleasure in life can replace the joys of courtship, love, sex, raising a family, working productively and seeing our children grow to do the same, for the undertaking of these acts is the true purpose of your life.

Enjoy this gift and savor each stage of your journey without guilt or regret. This is the central tenet of my religion, the name for which I will give Etheism, the belief of God as a universal force of energy.

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Revelation: David Finds God


2008
05.17

I just found God. No kidding. Im a believer now. After all those years of eschewing the idea of a divine presence, I have finally seen the universal light of truth. What would cause such a transformation, you wonder? Well, exposure to the universal light of truth, pretty much. What is this universal light? How does one see it? Have I gone completely bonkers? These questions will be answered in the following few paragraphs, blog entries and random drunken mumblings.

Firstly I will state from the get-go that I am starting my own religion. I dont want you to misconstrue my newfound faith as to be in any way related to any major religion existing today. I suppose elements of all of them are true in some way, but I think they completely misconstrue the truth and build so much bullshit around it, that you cant really see it anymore. Maybe people wanted more out of their religion, more meaning out of their existence, so religions grew to fulfill this need. Maybe they lusted for more power. Either way, they have been distorted so as to make the truth impossible to see.

The honest truth is that the actions of your life dont particularly matter. From the perspective of the universal consciousness, your life matters an amount which is infinitesimally close to zero. You can be good and bad, the UC pretty much doesnt give a crap. To kill someone, for example, is against the universal plan, but matters so incredibly little as to be almost insignificant. In fact, it may even be a part of the plan. As human beings, it makes no sense to be terribly concerned with the details of the universal plan, as you have been programmed to enjoy your life and in so doing, play your role in the UP. However, being human you have a consciousness that demands to be aware of whats happening to it, so humans have longed for this spiritual meaning to life, to be aware of the plan that exists for us. We have in the past turned to religion to satisfy this need, but as these religions were so full of hogwash and illogicality they stood opposed to the truth we had learned with our own eyes. Religion, in its role of tour guide to Eternity, has failed miserably. Instead of helping us to observe our own place in the universe and of the meaning to our futile lives, they elevated their own status to be much higher than it should be, to control people to behave as they wished them to. Power made them greedy, those religions, as they longed for more and more control. Whatever truth started out in them, by the time religions had taken over peoples lives, there was little truth to be found at all. This is why I must start my own religion.

To be honest, criticizing todays religions is almost a waste of time. There is so little to believe about them that people need to study it in order to see how it might be true, go to church every week and recite prayers to enforce it. If you really need to reinforce truth, then maybe its not so true to begin with. Truth is a light which shines upon us. Yes, finding real truth requires a search, but once found it should make itself forever known, imprinted on your brain. Truths as elemental as 1+1=2 or the difference between hot and cold are, once learned, never forgotten. In the same way, the Universal Truth is something that, once learned, is not easily forgotten.

The plan is something I need to talk about. The plan is the goal that our lives contribute a part to. All of us are helping it along. I want you to imagine you are God for a moment. You look out over Creation and see all the different life-forms blossoming, burgeoning their existence into the universe. As it all grows, you feel that the winner will grow to benefit further your plan. Right now, the humans are showing promise, but will the dominant species be the virii, which eternally replicate and never destroy each other, as the humans are prone to do? You feel no special longing for either side to win, just to watch as it unfolds before you. You are happy to let the creatures develop, all along playing their Darwinian games of natural selection until they have the capacity to join the communication of the UC.

No doubt there are other civilizations out there also competing their way to universal significance. Some may just be starting out, others may be far more advanced than ours. Looked at from Gods perspective, we see them as eternally engaging in the battle of survival. There are many species which are not even nearly going to come close to winning. One of the branches of life forked out and made a bird called a dodo. That branch had hoped to be the ultimate species, fighting for domination of the planet, the solar system, the galaxy, but alas, it turned out to be a really stupid bird. As a result, its line ended. As humans, we are living out our lives and we think we are developing quite well, but this may not always be the case. Another life form may swallow us in pursuit of their own destiny and that will be our end. However, as we advance, we will be open to broader and broader forms of communication, using methods previously undreamt of. Eventually, we will discover other species. Of course, they may be a species of giant walking plants, who communicate through molecular emission and transmission. In which case, well think twice before making the movies about cross-species romance. Species are out there, its just a matter of finding them.

Imagine a caveman. He is living in a cave on the outskirts of the city. He has never ventured far out of his cave and the town locals have never risked getting close to him. The caveman is unaware of the world. There is, of course a wireless internet signal running through the air around his cave. The humans in the town send this wireless signal out. Theres also a cell phone network in the area. If the caveman had a computer or a mobile phone, hed be able to contact the humans and access all their knowledge. However until the caveman builds the computer and mobile technology, he will be unable to bridge that gap. You may ask, what about more traditional forms of communication, such as smoke signals, mirror flashes or plain old-fashioned shouting. From a universal perspective this amounts to asking, why dont the aliens send us information through more traditional means, in ways we could understand? The answer is the same for the townspeople and the caveman as it is for the aliens and us. That is, they cant communicate with us for the same reason we cant run computer networks on a system of smoke signals: the mechanism for communication is simply inadequate. What seems like an impossible task for our imaginary caveman, that task of hooking in to the wireless signal of the town, remains our very real task of finding out how to plug into the universal network of truth. Its almost an impossible feat, but its one we must never give up on. A major part of my religion is learning how to connect to truth and be open to receive it.

to be continued…

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Chat Enabled


2008
05.16

I just added a chat feature to my site. Now you can drop me a line while you’re reading. Awesome, no?

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Violet Hill


2008
05.15

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I heard the single ‘Violet Hill’ from Coldplay’s new album ‘Viva la Vida’. At the end of the song, it mellows out to just Chris Martin’s voice and a piano which is a magical 30 seconds. I spent about 2 hours listening to those 30 seconds last night on repeat. I hope that Coldplay have more tracks like this when they finally release the new album.

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